SCREAM YES! I CAN HAVE ALL OF THE THINGS!!
For all of y’all who know me as thick or big boned big booty or whatever I just wanted to show you the me I was for ten-12 years of my life..
Got off adderal because it made me bland and too serious (bitchy) and killed my personality…. then after getting off I have gained weight slowly over the past 4 years despite my obsessive workouts and custom tailored nutrition (full genetic panel done on my genes- knew exactly to the gram what I needed)…$$$$$
I gave it a shot ALL of the “RIGHT” things. Sleep. Quitting alcohol. Eating PERFECT. Nothing worked for me as my genetics were catching up to me.
I had enough.
In this new life I started to perfect a couple years ago I realized I needed to get serious and be extreme if I wanted IT ALL.
I had a gastric sleeve placed December 16th. It was the scariest thing I’ve ever done. I wanted HEALTH. I wanted ten years added to my life! And I’m almost there! Back to my comfortable place! 23 LBS down today!!!
YET I foolishly did it alone.
This was because I haven’t found a worthy enough person/people to let into my life who I KNOW without shadow of doubt that would be there for me UNCONDITIONALLY.
A friend of mine put into my head “man I hope you find someone who will be there for you when you go through tough scary shit so you’re not being tough alone always”
And damn it he was right. I deserve that!
My soul deserves to be held by someone who will catch me when I fall.
I AM FINALLY open to true unconditional love and willing to learn how to give that to someone deserving. I have plenty of love and selflessness to give at this point after building myself.
So this year I seek balance in all I do.
IM HUSTLING MY ASS OFF for the money, Shit tons of it! I see it! and has already started to trickle in.!
MY family will finally be healed, and the positive, growing, supportive, loving, unjudgmental FIGHT for my BLOOD family will emerge this year- it already started last year meeting my biological father- who has stood by my side for every decision I have made moving forward. I have and will continue to give this to them because that’s what I WILL HAVE- I ALREADY HAVE IT!
The only area of my life which is lacking currently is spiritually. I am not someone to follow a crowd. I am a leader. I dont do well with being told how things are and will always be. I’m curious. I need growth and change to be happy. I grew up catholic and am not entirely sure how to grow this part of my life? Anyone have a test for how to be spiritual? Maybe I should visit eastern ways of thinking? Any input is welcome!
Point of this post is I WANT IT ALL. And I will listen to NO ONE who tells me I cant, won’t, don’t deserve it, or anything along those lines.
JOIN ME AND BE UNASHAMED TO BE A FUCKING WINNER!
Yea we fall down and aren’t perfect but if you want more there is a way!
I HAVE SUCH A PASSION FOR LIFE! I want to be surrounded by those who are the same!
I HAVE MADE A GROUP FOR LIKE-minded individuals like this.
It is called
My “ elite efficient fam”
MESSAGE ME TO JOIN MY PRIVATE GROUP. I’ll send details!